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February 29 my skul sux! does urs?its twenty nine feb! wow! twenty nine feb! hahaha.
tis dae is sooo unlucky!!! seriously! 2dae ivan declared tt latecoming wil nt b taken into consideration. hw nice tt sounds. bt todae i playd hookie again. bcoz i ws late!!! wtf! while i ws at e poly waitng 4 e doc. den huda msgd me sayng latecoming will nt b taken into consideration todae. i cried sia. i dunnoe y bt i did. coz i din wanna lie to my mom again. bt i did it niwae n nw i fil lyk crap. i shud hv gone 2 skul bt i ws afraid tt if i gt bookd den it'll b my 5th tym n i'll instantly gt indefinite suspension. or worst b barred frm exams.
sowie mom. x(
damn. i sooo hate my skul. i used to think changkat ws over e top wif rules. bt MI is worst. way way way over e top. i fil lyk im in prison.
5days late (IN A WHOLE YEAR) - indefinite suspension or barred frm exams
7days absent w/o VR (IN A WHOLE YEAR AS WELL. n mind u VR means oni n oni MC. NO PARENTS LETTER) - barred frm exams.
tis is jz sooo ludicrous! i hate it n i cant stand it. its too over!
to evry1 out there. my skul sux. dn join it. seriously!
[auntie.p] February 24 oh bugger off!i wish e world wud jz bugger off. esp rents & ppl hu tink i force myself 2 b dis way. 2 be stick thin. i noe i aspire 2 b a "clothes hanger". bt i dn wanna b a twig. i wanna b curvy. i wanna b luscious. i wan my bf 2 go gaga ova me. bt im nt. im jz sooo fcukng stick thin & no matter hw i try 2 b a frickn glut & fatten myself. i jz cnt. so fcuk me!
twenty two february two thousand eight. hepi thinking dae 2 all my sis guides out there! wt a bummerfull dae. stupid fon din ring. so din gt 2 wake up 2 go 2 BV 2 c their parade. bummer much. den almoz late 4 skul! bummer bummer much. jz wasnt my dae. went 2 guides hse 2 submit my YA app form. wantd 2 buy YA badge bt apparently e guide shop doesnt sell it there. if u wan it, u'll hv 2 ask e YA comm. & i jz did ystd. den went 2 bishan lib. gt sum nice bks. 1 called "vampire kisses". damn nice. done reading ord ystd. other 2 by cecily von zieg. "it girl novel: notorious" & "it girl novel: reckless". nice. bt i kinda 4gt wt happend in "it girl". so gotta go scout 4 tt bk firz b4 start readg these 2. hah! den went wanderng ard aimlessly in junction8. hahaha.
twenty three february two thousand eight. thinkng dae rally at indoor stad. took my baby sis w me. her firz eva thinkng dae rally. hw awesome. took sum piccies. bt yet 2 b developed. wen theyre readie, i'll scan & show em. twas fun hanging w my baby. she realie njoyd it too. bliss. we had donuts tt dae. & she learnt y i loved subway cookies sooo much. bt she gotta kip it on e dwn low larr. hah!
twenty four february two thousand eight. damn u stupid nyamok. stop biting me!!! ok 2dae went out 2 T2 4 lunch. den afta tt went hm n carried on w e GP IT pres. i sooo hate GP. 2dae neglectance again frm mezzar. he din call me laz nyt. e usual xcuses. im sooo sick of em. haiz. i wish i had e heart 2 tel him tt i truly cnt stand his neglectance nimore. i realie feel lyk breakng w him. haiz. bt my mind wud say "bt u lasted sooo long. its been actualie 1 yr!!!" den my heart wud say "yeah 1 yr. a dreadful 1. where more than 5mths we were on jz frens mode." damn!
dang. my nails r realie long. & e mozzie byts r realie itchy. i'll scratch til i bleed. gosh. bt i cnt cut my nails nw. its ord way past sundown!!! damn u nyamok!!! im gettng slpy. bt i hv 2 stay up til 11.3o so e grp cn gv me any updates they wanna add on 2 e study notes. & oso wait 4 tt mezzar 2 kol me. if he stil rmbs my frickn existence!!!
damn u stupid mozzies. where r e cicaks wen u need em?
askng an enemy 4 help. tts jz madness larr naz. hah!
ok. im off. 4 nw. vanilla ice cream n choco frosties cereal for awl!!! x)
many loves.
[auntie.p] February 17 confessions.confessions part I.
im mishin mezzar sooo much! hvnt seen him since tuesdae. i thot we were gonna b bck 2 our lovey-dovey selves. bt i gez nt. my exams r ova. bliss! hopefully nw we'll b bck 2 our lovey-dovey selves? we'll c. im seriously mishin him lyk mad. we hvnt been toking much. bz me w my exams. which i prolie scru-d up badly. i tink e oni sure pass is my malay. hah! e rest r goners.
came v-dae. sorrowful much. total neglectance! x( bt i made him a beautiful n gorgeous v-dae slash one yr anni card. wantd to gv it 2 him on fridae. bt he went overseas. bummer much.
ystd. had a perm. at loyang point. met sufi at e hawana cafe. bought lasagne. yummy much! thx sufi. =)
new hairdo makes me tink of new beginnings. tempted for a potential break-up. haiz.
confessions part II.
to my beloved BOYFREN.
i gv up. im sooo cnfused. n i dn wanna wait 4 u any longer. i had high hopes for u. den i'd lose em. bt u'd cum tru 4 me n gv em to me again. n tear em apart again. n gv em to me again. n it goes on n on. n it wnt stop coz ur sooo frickin stubborn. i realie gv up. with u im dying. w/o i'll die. at firz i tot ur worth dying 4. nw i realise i'd rather die! i cnt take it nimore. pls mezzar. try to change. i need ur frickin attn. i need ur frickin love. i need u! if u continue lyk dis, i'd rather u leave me 4 sum1 else (again) than to leave me dying n suffering lyk dis.
damn u, mezzar! i love u sooo much dyou noe tt?
ur girlfren,
[auntie.p] February 07 orang hutans are orangs too. they have rights!!!firz things firz. happie chinese new year n gong xi fa cai to all my dear darlings out there! n happie holidaes to evry1 else too! =)
ok. ryt nw im using my lappie. n dis is e firz tym im using internet overseas. hw awesome is tt?!?!?! im at GRAND BLUE WAVE HOTEL JOHOR BAHRU. nt many stars bt im staying at an executive suite. wondering y e ding dong tralala m i here? well. dad's playng golf tmr morning. so y nt stay a nyt 2nyt. den go hm 2gda tmr evening. awesome ryt? hah!
went to e johor zoo jz nw. n twas fun n lively at firz. till tt lil monkey snatchd my hairbands frm my wrist wen i tried to offer him some kacang. damn u monyet. 2 bands were loz sia! lucky he din snatch my diamond ring or sth. if he did den it'll b war. i'll go into his cage n wrestle him. hah! mcm paham.
den twas fine afta tt. pretty nice atmosphere. of lil children lookng in awe. hehe. laufter in e air. typical zoo sounds. till we met dis lioness in a cage. she actualie lookd at us (me n sha) in such awe n amazement. lyk she wantd to EAT us!!! den we lyk turn our backs to leave n she pounces at e cage door!!! omg! hw scary ws tt. n summore dad said tt nt long ago. quite recently actualie, a black panther escaped. imagine if dis lioness escaped? she'd come afta us firz sia! scary!
den we came to e cage w a tiger. she or he actualie sprayd at e kids standing in front of e gate. btw. e zoo ws sooo nt safety frenly. it seems lyk e bars of e lil teeny weeny gates can come down anytym sia. scary much. bt c-ing ppl get sprayd by e cat ws actualie pretty cool. hahaha.
ok. evryting said up there is nth compared to wt imma tel u nw! i actualie cried afta c-ing e orang hutan. she ws sooo lonely by herself. n she ws old. n sooo sad n pitiful lookng. her enclosure ws sooo badly litterd. in fact twas e moz litterd part of e zoo. hw cruel! n she ws jz sitting there playng n EATING frm e garbage. hw damn cruel sia. so dad ws eatng ice cream. so he tot we cud somehw cheer her up. so her gave her his ice cream cone. she ate e cream n threw away e cone biscuit. i tot twas cute of her to do tt. bt c-ing her in tt thrash jz made me so sad. n wt ws even worst ws bsyd us, there were some ppl hu were actualie giving her ciggies. CIGGIES!!! imagine if she ate em. so bad sia them. damn bustard. bt lucky she din take em. i jz cnt help bt break down sia. it seems lyk e zoo doesnt care abt her at all!!! she has e ryt to live in a clean place if she is to b in captivity. i hated e zoo in tt instant!!! tts jz sooo damn bloody cruel! smudged my eyeliner in e car. x(
u noe. if oni tt orang hutan cud cum to our zoo instead. she'll b treatd lyk royalty!!! haiz.
i wish e ppl they r more responsible sia. wtf. i hope they all die. its lyk they encourage ppl to feed e animals n litter e place. its damn cruel larr!!! n its sooo saddenning n depressing c-ing tt orang hutan. realie. i'll nvr 4gt her. =(
its lyk damn late ord larr. n im damn tired. well gdnytz den. n rmb. animals hv ryts too! esp orang hutans. coz orang hutans r orangs too! all of a sudden ive moved orang hutans to my top 5 fave animals. they come in 3rd place afta tigers n b4 sheeps. thank god there were no polar bears there. if there were n they werent taken care of properly. im instantly alerting animals' ryts man! realie!!!
love animals guys! love em. milk n toast n honey 4 all.
loves.
muackiez.
[auntie.p]
P.S : a huge happieee burfdaaay to hurfieee!!! =D February 03 roxette - waiting for the rainWaiting For The Rain by Roxette.
I'm waiting for the rain.
I'm waiting for you. I'm waiting for the rain. To clean my soul. I'm waiting for the rain. Nothing's gonna be better. Without you. hey boyfren. where hv u been? gosh. its lyk im waiting 4eva 4 tt boyfren. i tot ive stop waiting ord. bt evrytym he gave me hope he takes it away an crush it into tiny lil byt sized pieces and blow it into e wind. on e contrary, evrytym i lose hope, he'll change my myn as quickly n gave me hope again. its a fricking painful n neverendng cycle. god. hw long m i spoz to suffer. w him im dying. bt w/o him i'll die! which is betta? i told myself i wud wait. at least till we turn a yr. bt i fear tt i'll oni rmb my yr w him as nt bt downs n lesser n lesser ups. its sooo saddenning. i fil lyk givin up. god pls help me! o2 february 2oo8. ystd went to JB for shoppng. e shoppng centre called "city square". its so damn near larr. jz past e causeway lorr. n its sooo awesome there's tis lil section called "innercity". where all e hip n happening clothes n accessories r sold. its sooo cool larr. there's lyk sooo much shops n gd bargains. n i tink my rents were e oni "old" ppl there. hahaha. gt myself a brand nu pair of shoes. (pink canvas flats). hehe. twas at least RM5o. no point bargaining coz it came frm a cool classy shop. then i oso bot a pair of whyt skinny jeans. costd RM8o. bt w e help of my darling padre, e price droppd to RM7o. awesome larr. madre ws pretty pizd ystd. im nt sure y. ws she realie upset tt we din gt anyting 4 nez. or ws it jz plain pms? wteva it is. jz gt over it larr. if nez wantd sth, he shud come down n c himself larr. wen i gt bck, mezzar msgd saying he's goin to his aunt's place. n he'll msg me wen he returns. i waited till 1am. no msg frm him. went to slp afta msging him gdnytz. no replies. nt even a call. x(
o3 february 2oo8. jz nw went to mkn at casuarina curry at thompson area. padre kip insisting we go 4 a nature walk. bt it ws raining larr. n i hate e rain lyk mad sia. in twas sooo cold all dae larr. even nw. hehehe. den went to thompson plaza. bot e stuff 4 e bio model proj. satay stix n super glu. gt em. im actualie pretty hypd to do e model. bt i stil hvnt a clue hw RNA looks lyk larr. wt n idiot i m. hah! mezzar called whilst in e car. i told im in e car n sayd bye. he said bye (sooo sadly). i ws temptd to msg him bt i din wanna coz i ws mad at him for 4gtting abt me laz nyt. serves him ryt! hah! spoz to b slpng nw larr. coz its mondae tmr. n gez wt? on mondaes im either owaes late or absent frm skul. wth. hah! god i realie cnt stand dis negectance frm mezzar. argh!!! o btw. my maths hmwk is snowballing. hooray!!! ive gt a maths test tmr. bt i hvnt studied. ive gt 2 maths assignments due tmr. none done. ive gt econs due tmr. not done one bit. n cudnt b botherd to do so. i feel so hanyut sia. hah! i tink my bio tutorials r prolly due tmr too. bt im nt caring. haiz. i wish i cud change. bt e idiot i turn to 4 motivation is neglecting me!!! x(
n he still hasnt called me yet!!! some boyfren u r mezzar eksyam! msg u, IM u. sume tk gune. u tau tk? evrytym u dn kol me i die bit by bit? u mane tau. i cry myself to slp wen u tk kol sbab ur voice is lyk my frickin lullaby. ur words r lyk a assurance tt im safe. i noe it sounds fcukng mushy bt its sooo fcukng tru!!! jz so u noe, ive did wt u wantd me to. ive put e stupid psp games in my lappy for u. so u'd betta mit me tmr u hear. no more neglectance. pls. x(
im off to slp. unlez he kols me larr. gdnytz all. kinder bueno for all.
muackiez.
[auntie.p]
p.s : nazzie bustard has a rusty pen knife. |
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